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Dysfunctional Illaureate

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1.
Better Than You 04:05
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Look out behind you Here comes that subtle glance It's here again to tell me that I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better... Can't quite convince you When I'm unsure of me Deep down I have to tell myself I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better than this Hands thrust in my pockets, Dare not look up off the floor To see the look reminding me I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better... It's not so much the sound I make As what I'm trying to say While deep down I have to tell myself I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better than this This is not who I am What I'm supposed to be Someone much better than me Someone you'll never see I came with all the right parts But all the wrong directions Not much of an equation to prove that I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better Bound, gagged, and caged, My personal best has come of age And still no one to see how much I'm I'm better than you I'm better than you I'm so much better than this This is not who I am What I'm supposed to be Someone much better than me Someone you'll never see
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Goodbye Jenny 03:56
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I can't help but notice that we've become A breeding ground for contempt and despise Your blackened eyes and the scars I hold in my arms All misgiving to the words of the wise Now something we all see comes from you... We came together and created the beautiful But this blessing was a burden to be This body's mine and I'll do damn well as I please But what's inside of you is still half of me Now something we all see comes from you... So goodbye Jenny, hello grief I wear my insides like a wreath I know we said it's best this way So goodbye now, just go away Battle-weary, we see where it is we stand We can't recover from the loss of our child I'm haunted by a ghost between you and me The screaming voice that was never alive Now something we all see comes from you... So goodbye Jenny, hello grief I wear my insides like a wreath I know we said it's best this way So goodbye now, just go away We both made a promise that we're not going to fight But that was yesteryear... Now we're both beaten down with no end in sight So much for yesteryear... Just say my piece, then a quick release Is all that I can do The ones who truly will appreciate life the most Are those who suffer through So goodbye Jenny, hello grief I wear my insides like a wreath I know we said it's best this way So goodbye now, just go away You're someone we all see
3.
Blind Road 05:01
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The blind road you won't take Will lead you to protection The road you choose to take Will lead you to destruction Submersed in deep blue sea You know your ship is sinking You're a red flag waving high But I don't know what you're thinking You're only human, why crucify yourself? No more than human, can you deny yourself? The water from the stream All spills before you pour it I reach to pull you free But you choose to ignore it You're only human, why crucify yourself? No more than human, can you deny yourself? Scattered at your feet The pictures that remind you A mask that we once wore Bloodstains that trail behind you You're only human, why crucify yourself? No more than human, can you deny yourself? The blind road you won't take Will lead you to protection
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Family Tree 03:02
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I'm sitting in the middle of a mediation Flanked by matriarchy on both sides The senseless bickering goes in one ear and out the other A crown achieved by forsaken pride But it's hard to be heard when you're still just a kid You're better off not listening A strict measure loses all of it's reason and rhyme: "Do what I say, not what I do" But I try to do the right thing I just know what's best for me But I'm so sick of this And what this means to me Now I sit and watch the fists fly from a safer distance The matriarchy at each other's throats The ill-communication is a form of retardation Self-denial is their comfort zone And suddenly I've become everybody's best friend They love me now that I'm leaving home A peace-keeper never gets any peace in return So pardon me while I use the door But we don't care, we pretend it's alright... But I try to do the right thing I just know what's best for me But I'm so sick of this And what this means to me But we don't care, we pretend it's alright...
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Jaded 04:12
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Time again To look at what is so familiar Like it's always been Closing my eyes Hoping never more to see The void of your surprise Am I so jaded? I must be jaded I despise My all too unforgiving Cynical right eye I criticize Take away your points for style Unbecoming crooked smile Am I so jaded? I must be jaded Don't ask me what's been spoken Don't care what you've been told No crime where nothing's sacred Don't shudder when you're chosen Why arise? Even if I cut to the chase I've seen it all before No feeling Nothing phases me at all Wake me up if I'm alive Am I so jaded? I must be jaded Don't ask me what's been spoken Don't care what you've been told No crime where nothing's sacred Don't shudder when you're chosen I must be It must be me
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Et Tu, Brutus? 01:06
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Bless me with your wisdom: fair Show me that you really care Split the atom like a pear But I'll never let you touch me there Help me Don't you get what I'm saying? Somebody help me Can't you answer my praying? Please help me This ain't no joke that I'm playing Won't you help me What's that you're saying? Somebody help me. But you don't have the guts to stay Turn your head, it goes away My dying words will only say YOU ARE WORTHLESS.
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Prayed In My Sleep 02:58
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Once again I find I prayed in my sleep I know this means something to me Like a promise I keep But when the morning comes The light I see breaks suddenly and Within my reach An introduction to birth Steam rising from the newborn A mother's gift for the earth But light is sobering And what I see will cease to be and Dreams like these will fade away... Crying out loud But not yet able to speak The babe reaches out to the whole world Only knowing to breathe My tears begin to flow As fragilety and innocence grow Once awake I see the miracle fold The beauty that grew in my eyes Comes crashing down in the cold But when the winter comes Survival kicks in suddenly and Dreams like these will fade away... Just like you and I will fade away.
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Girl Behind Glass 04:41
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A lot of time has come and gone Travelled on Since I knew you And in this time you've bound and tied Learned to hide The truth Does the sun go out at night Do your demons come alive Inside of you And now I feel like I'm losing One of my own Now did your hero fall from grace Strike your face With the hand that first held you And do you live just one more day To hear me say those three little words: He abused you In all the ways you had to see How they drowned your purity The stranger grew It's like I don't even know you anymore Sometimes I don't think I know you at all... And now I feel like I'm losing One of my own And still the empty echoes...
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And The Band Played On 06:20
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(gratuitous guitar solo)
10.
Deep Blue Sea 05:42
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We've got a mountain to climb But we'll never get there on time Please be kind, rewind the fall By taking the rest of it all The reason is easy to see Just lying there laughing at me And in your place to cast the stone Your laughter is standing alone Don't think I care about you at all... Don't think I care about you, 'cause I am nothing, and you are nothing to me To seal our fate you bring the end By burning the bridge we stand in If you insist that this must be Then put us out of your misery Don't think I care about you at all... Don't think I care about you, 'cause I am nothing, and you are nothing to me Life leaves a lot that's left to explain Life leaves a lot I know I can't change But I'm not complaining Now that you are nothing to me
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Defense For A Murder 02:01
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Anyone who eventually comes undone May know their right from wrong But the party's just begun Anyone who eventually offs their mom They must be sick and wrong What's the sense of hanging on? Anyone who eventually jacks their dad Just sees a ghost they never had So why should they be sad? "Bang! Bang! I'D shoot him... right in the head!" Oh, doesn't that feel better now? Let it all come out Come out Yeah, it's no sooner said than done It's all come out Come out Anyone who finally loses face Should never be replaced Identity erased Anyone beaten inches from their life By their father or his wife Has my blessing with a knife "HA HA! Come on, now... relax!" Oh, don't you feel better now? Let it all come out Come out Yeah, it's no sooner said than done It's all come out Come out Anyone who's been stripped of all their pride No dignity left inside And nowhere else to hide Anyone shown how much they're unloved By the hands that reach above Takes a homicidal drug Anyone driven to the point of believing that killing the cause of their pain is the only way to make it stop Has suffered enough.
12.
Wave 01:48
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The sun setting alone again in an unforgiving city of dark Not one but you to answer to the broken world you've torn apart It's not a question of if, but when, all the panic-stricken run to your door We're not here to beg you for shelter, We're here to make you pay for subscribing to the powers that be You find, you see Too bad that this gleaming page of your history will go unturned Forgiveness don't come easily; it's a hard, hard lesson you learn The taste of blood unmistakeable to you Although you know it isn't your own So don't try to talk me out of believing what I see When it's lying here in front of me You find, you see
13.
Hollow Seed 06:59
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I should have seen it coming Life lesson birthed last summer I don't know where you come from But I know I've seen you somewhere I finally came up for air Almost drowned while testing water I never knew that I'd be found By the one who sent me there Inside, so much the same The likeness scares me away Am I blind? Who knows to say? A hollow seed planted inside of me And grows And still It comes Becomes... Wait and see what happens tomorrow What's undone will cast no shadow... But still I wonder... You shouldn't know what I'm thinking The ending just might scare you For all this world offered Suicide was sweeter for her Inside, so much the same The likeness scares me away Am I blind? Who knows to say? A hollow seed planted inside of me And grows And still It comes Becomes... Wait and see what happens tomorrow What's undone will cast no shadow But still I wonder... Will you be here next summer?
14.
You Can't Do That (free) 02:15
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released January 1, 2004

All songs written by Mark Walker except 14: Lennon/McCartney

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